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* my laptop has taken a turn and i thought she was just sickly, but no. she ded. RIP trusty friend, you were with me for (3) years and now you're gone. you shall be missed. joking aside (i'm not rly joking, i was emotionally attached to her) this sucks. i had so much epicness collected inside Eunice. :( woe. lost, all those pics, movies, videos, fanvids, icons, lost. shit. -_-

* read "The Lincoln Lawyer" and meh. it was alright i guess...idk. i think i've gotten spoiled by Fandom's (pick any Fandom) deft hand at characterization. like, take Mickey "Mouth" Haller, the protag of TLL and i get it, i know what Connelly wants to pull (everybody does is kinda the point). Mickey's a bit of a dirt bag (he's a defense lawyer, la di dah) but he also has enough of a conscience that when he gets called a legal con-artist he feels it in his dusty worn heart. it's like, hey, here's this basically good guy who has done some bad/questionable things --like his clients OH THE IRONY or whatever-- because of his situation, the gray areas *which are heavily pointed out to throughout* make him all flawed (we are too sophisticated for "perfect" aren't we ?? @.@) and interesting. except that i've been habituated to characterization that flirts with me all coy and suave in a round-about way (OMG ARE THEY FLIRTING OR ARE WE JUST FRIENDS?!?). makes me work for it. the character development in TLL felt more anvil-like-in-yr-lap-boob-slap-across-the-face than anything. these days a lot of published books feel like they're written for people who never read. CHUCKDAMN YOU, WRITE FOR PEOPLE WHO READ! jesushchrist.

*missed The Borgias, damn it. waiting so long for it and then i just got wrapped up in "Mildred Pierce" and totally forgot about Mr. Jeremy Irons. i'm liking MP a LOT. the relationship that Mildred has with her daughter Veda is just so dysfunctional and skeevey and weird and rly close and claustrophobic and full of distrust and animosity and passionate emotions. very weird dynamic there and feels like it should be set in Ancient Rome not in the US in the 40's. wouldn't surprise me if somebody asked for some Yuletided femmeslash. but yeah, gotta go find me some Borgia.

*read The Year of Letting Go (oldie but goodie) and liked the fic, except the last bit where they have this incredibly squicky (to me) scene when Bobby finds out the boys take their bromance rly seriously and idk, which totally turned me off. like i started thinking about the author and how maybe she was trying to say --through Bobby-- that people who think adult consensual incest is wrong are ignorant and KILL THE BEAST afraid of what they can't understand and i stopped thinking about the story itself. i don't like that. i don't like being suddenly pulled out of the story and into an agenda-pushing wormhole. i'm not saying i blame the author for that, because she can't control what i think at any given moment, but it colors my experience of the fic (it's sad, 'cause it's in the last paragraph or something) that's for sure.