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The King Ontd_SPN is dead! Long live The Queen SPN_Party!


this fandom is an embarrassment of riches, and i keep it that way by not reading EVERYTHING a fab author writes at once. greed is not good, not when resources are precious and scarce, and with as much great writing there is in this fandom, it is a finite resource so-- i savor every bit of greatness there is and re-savor it sometimes, in favor of reading something new from an author i love. that's how you don't burn yrself out, ladies and gentlemen.

Second Map of the World by ~Candle_Beck

Redefinition by ~Whereupon

History of Love by ~Glassy Skies

sorry if this post makes no sense or feels abrupt or whatever, but i'm just attempting to jot down random impressions in a semi-coherent stream-of-consciousness manner.

i often think Candle Beck's writing is the handsome young brother of Glassy's gorgeous, graceful writing. like, they both have poetry in their DNA, but Candle is more of a non-annoying, non-pervy (yeah, even with the Wincest) version of Hemingway and Gauguin if he'd been a writer not a painter and Johnny Cash if he'd gotten into prose, and Glassy is much more Fitzgerald and Lorca and Nin and Artemisia and Camille Claudel. Whereupon lies somewhere between those two sensibilities in a way that's all hir own (and i'm not saying that Artemisia is like Claudel and that Cash is like Hemingway, but that-- idek-- *shrugs* that's what comes to me when I read their stories).

anyway, i'd read Candle_Beck's story before, but i decided I wanted to read it again because of what Albert Brooks said in the recent Oscar Round Table about the difference btw great actors and good actors. like, Christopher Plummer talked about the great rage, great temperament as the mark of being a great actor. Albert Brooks and Gary Oldman on the other hand spoke about great actors as being able to live truthfully in fictitious circumstances, but without filling out all the blanks for the audience. Leaving spaces empty for the audience to fill in with themselves. And this is what Candle Beck does and what Whereupon does and what Glassy Skies does. They give generously, but they know the genius of restraint, of not whoring and shoving and spreading so much out that nothing is left for the imagination. In those quiet seemingly blank spaces the reader has room to speak and think and feel and take away.

in Candle's story, we are introduced into the cataclysmic moment when Sam accidentally reveals his romantic love for Dean. this has been done in a million different ways, and yet, you read the story and it feels completely fresh and new because --yeah, while we might suspect that everything will be alright and they'll get together in the end (though you never know with Candle 'cause zie likes to fuck wichu) the story illustrates that moment in between wanting and knowing yr love is reciprocated. and we've all gone through this, the yearning for love, even if it's like totally directionless and you have no actual object of love to pine for. it's the universality in the story that makes it so powerful, not the fact that these are two specific dudes going for the incest because nobody should live alone and die alone and be so bereft. (the canon allows for this because the canon allows for superhuman emotional stregth that does not exist irl.) and yet Candle doesn't neglect the two dudes in order to show this love-yearning, because zie doesn't niss seeing the trees for the forest and vice versa.

in Glassy's story, well. Glassy loves to talk about loss...because when you talk about loss you talk about love at its most intense and brightest. there's no loss without love, not rly. that's why Buddha advices letting go of desire. without desire there's no pain. without desire though, a fierce and all-consuming desire, we have no stories. think about it. remember the last time you read and was interested in a story where the characters didn't want anything, weren't propelled by any driving purpose. yeah. here Castiel is losing his omniscience and what does it mean for a creature like him to no longer remember everything? who are we without our canon of memories? idk. it's fucking scary, is what is is, and heartbreaking.

from ~Whereupon's Redefinition:

Love, as far as he's concerned, has nothing to do with marriages and mortgages and those stupid songs about growing old together. He gets the songs about hanging out with some girl, about thinking she's hot and wanting to sleep with her and then sleeping with her and wishing that could last forever, he really does, but that isn't love, not the way he understands it. Love is staying up all night and pretending not to look at the clock the whole time, waiting for somebody to get home, like keeping vigil ever made a damn bit of difference; love is pulling the trigger again and again until it feels like your arm is going to break, so that when it isn't practice, when it's real, you won't miss. Love is going hungry so that somebody else can eat, and love is telling lies so that somebody else can sleep, and love is wanting a better life for somebody else. Love is the ashes-and-whiskey, gut-punched feeling when they finally get it, and love is not asking them to turn it down, and love is feeling like a fucking asshole for being even just a little happy when they come back.

While definitions are found in dictionaries, this is why i listen to great music and read wonderful poems and novels and fanfics and watch films. for these redefinitions that both narrow down meanings to specific fictitious lives and circumstances and deepen and widen meanings, revealing them in the most personal/universal of ways so that they apply to us/everyone.

these fics are rated: all the star-eyes. *_*
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Opinion ~Unpopular or Not: We lost to Brit/Santana (who are adoracute, by the way) and I was sad about it tbh. I love the few Glee fics Ive read, but -frankly-- I'm a lot more about the SPN than I am about the Glee. Yet, thinking a bit more about the whole situation, we deserved to lose. It's ugly as hell to see mostly heterosexual people fighting it out so that the gay fictional people they fap to can win an online poll. Rly, people, I'm all for confrontation and stating opinions in a straight-forward balls to the wall manner, but when it pertains gay visibility in the mainstream media, why not be a little more respectful? people should just mind manners and wipe their fucking feet. this is not really their house, they're just playing in it.


And they Cry to See Your Face by ~Honeylocusttree
awesome fic is awesome. lot of commenters focused on how bamf the Winchesters are here, but I just felt the bitterness of their portion in life. even while they were risking their lives, shortening their years from the stress alone, they're still feared/hated/misunderstood. I particularly adored the outside pov on Standford!Sam, who died pinned to that apartment ceiling as surely as Jess.

It's tricky to rec something like this because the alternate episodes are written by different authors, so-- but overall, I think they are doing pretty well...something I do miss from canon is the lighthearted moments between the dramatic ones. in this re-imagining the poetry overwhelms the usual fucked up Winchester penchant for deflection by way of humor/pop culture references/exuberant vulgarity.

Three foggy mornings and one rainy day (will rot the best birch fence a man can build) by ~Britomart_is
people rly rec me the good shit.

God, Mary thought she knew all the ways in which she'd been catastrophically wrong, but there's one more for the list — she thought that Dean was too young to grieve his brother. Thought he was too young to understand. He would have been the best big brother. She wishes more than anything that she could have seen it. Instead she gets this poisoned, perilous thing, watching Dean's fierce instincts attach to the saddest, smallest creature within reach.


read "Apt Pupil" by King and it fucked me up, ngl. the dude still slays. i love stories about corruption (in fandom the corruption often goes on backwards; Jensen is a cynical bastard and he's "corrupted" by Jared's love for life) but here...tricky-tricky. can you corrupt the willing? idk.

Hey gurl

Feb. 5th, 2012 03:37 pm
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Unorthodox Methods by Captanddeastar
Fandoms: White Collar, Supernatural
Pairings: Neal/Peter, background Peter/Elizabeth, Sam/Jess
Rating: PG-13
W/C: ~3,000
Summary: AU from original premise of SPN – Sam goes to law school and eventually joins the FBI, where he gets assigned as Peter’s probie, and the New York FBI office staff are amused, and eventually, slightly traumatized.

Peter pov fic, where Peter is jealous of probie!Sam&Neal, when he really really doesn't have to be. In this fic, El is as fabulous as always and Peter is hilariously insecure. Sam? Sam is a Neal fanboy. A gloriously poignant/funny fic where the Peter/Neal is lovely and Sam&Dean love is epic and beautiful.

rating: hilariful.

When Fics Take on a Life of Their Own by storiesfortravellers
Rating: Mature
Fandoms: Critical Theory RPF
Feminist Ryan Gosling
Relationship: Michael Fassbender/James McAvoy
Characters: Feminist Ryan Gosling - Character
Michael Fassbender
James McAvoy
Original Female Character
Fanfic Writer

Wow. This was the perfect fic for me rn because I'm feeling conflicted as all hell about Fassbender and Fassy. This is a tumblr post from 2 weeks ago.


I’m having a hard, hard, hard time getting a handle on the whole Fassbender thing. On the one hand he seems like an awesome guy. On the other hand, Ike Turner and Chris Brown.

On the one hand, To Kill a Mockingbird. On the other hand, the world is full of instances where women are disbelieved when they accuse a man of— anything, pretty much.

On the one hand, it’s horrible to judge/think/accuse somebody of a crime they did not commit, and that makes them a victim. On the other hand, if we don’t believe her then we’re calling her a liar, without knowing her, and how impartial is that? And a liar about being the victim of domestic abuse…fucked up, ngl.

On the one hand, he’s a white man. On the other, she’s a WoC. (If you think this shouldn’t matter, I’m side-eyeing you soooooo hard.)

On the one hand, she accused him. On the other hand, she recanted.

On the one hand, she recanted. On the other hand, women recant ALL THE FUCKING TIME with bruises in their faces, loose teeth and cracked ribs.

On the one hand, she’s made these accusations before with other exes. On the other hand, people who have been abused tend to be abused more than people who have never been abused.

On the one hand, she was nowhere near him when she accused him. On the other, what better time to be proactive/brave/get her power back than when he’s really far away and can’t hurt her.

On the one hand, I really loved him before this. On the other hand, I don’t know if I can look at him the same way again.

The fic didn't magically solve everything for me, but I don't think it's supposed to. This fic encapsulates everything I love about fanfiction, blurring lines btw media and reality, examining motivations, using tropes and kinks, analyzing what is desired while desiring.

rating: meta-awesome.

a moment of silence for [profile] squishyball's deletion. she was an amazing awesome fun girl and i'm gonna miss her horribly. :((((((((((((((((
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everybody and their mother has something to say about Lana del Rey these days. It's like the "give me yr thoughts on yaoi" of the internet rn, so I guess I'ma give you my thoughts. I totally understand those who yell "fake" or "fraud" at her, because I guess she sells herself one way but turns out to be another, but idgaf. Rita Hayworth was Margarita Cansino and she was not a redhead. So what? I don't expect my artists and entertainers to be authentic, I expect their work to be. Authentic in the sense that they fill me with spiritual or emotional truths, or entertain me or make me consider freestylin' tango, and that goes beyond facts and figures and lip enhancements. I could not care less if she was not born in the sidewalks of Venice Beach, if her daddy didn't recite Howl to her, didn't sing Johnny Cash instead of lullabies, and didn't point out where Humphrey and Jimmy hung out like he was pointing out memorials. idgaf if her mother didn't give her fake pearls to use as marbles, didn't blot out her scrapped knees with cotton balls soaked in rum and didn't --while drinking tequila-- use the limes she sucked on to lighten her hair. i can imagine that shit while i listen to her music and that fills me with cliched joy.

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what can i say? the bitch inspires me. i like her music. i even like her failures, or-- I like her failures a lot, because everybody loves a winner so nobody loves her, but yeah-- not necessarily. what interests me in Lana is the distance between what she wants to be and what she actually is. that distance is so fucking obvious and so fucking brave. i had to learn to be that brave, because i used to be the type who didn't like to break a sweat so that others didn't see me strain. i like to see her strain, to see her nervous lip licking and her awkward as all fuck white girl twirling. it makes me think i'm seeing someone at their most vulnerable. someone half-cooked, with a coltish stumbling personality, full of false steps and possibilities.

and her hair is awesome, so. idk. ILH. *shrugs*

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reading On the Road which should be required reading for all the bitches who watch Supernatural. don't believe me? lookey here:

They rushed down the street together, digging everything in the early way they had, which later became so much sadder and perceptive and sad.

...and I shambled after as I've been doing all my life after people who interest me, because the only people for me are the mad ones, the one who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time...

Yes, and it wasn't only because I was a writer and needed new experiences that I wed to know Dean more, ..., but because somehow in spite of our difference in character, he reminded me of some long-lost brother;...

And his criminality was not something that sulked and sneered, it was a wild yea-saying overburst of American joy...

...eager for bread and love...

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* Gonna take some online classes, because apparently taking semesters off does something to me and I must study my whole fucking life. C'est la vie, or whatever.

* I was thinking of doing a "Filo Fashion Week." Would anybody be willing to do that with me? Like, not get dressed or anything, but take photographs or their outfits for a week (on the hanger) and then post them? I'm always so curious to see what other people put on. Yes, I wonder about what my F-list wears. Don't judge.

* Read"The Threesome Handbook" by Victoria Vantoch and --wow-- I think I stan her a bit now (and not just because she has a section on finding yr inner queer). I'm as uninterested in 3-somes as I was before I read the book, because my brain doesn't work that way and my jealousy is epic and devastating, but I respect her pov, her sexual assertiveness and her motivations for wanting to live a threesomey life (I don't like that she used negging as a seduction technique; I was ecstatic over her emphasis on not being a pressuring coercive creepster). It also randomly made me think about how even the words for vagina can be such contentious thing, 'cause she kept using the word "pussy" and got to the point where I got kind of uncomfortable about it. Idk, because I've used the word and read it and usually I feel really friendly about it, but-- maybe it was the frequency of the use to the exclusion of all other words? (Hershey-highway for ass was not much better, tbh) I know other people are skeeved by the word "cunt" or even "vagina," but-- no clue, really. I just felt uncomfortable and don't even about it.

* read the Suiteverse and I wanted to talk to somebody about it, because it's such an odd duck. so my reactions to it are conflicted. i will try to give voice to them with the aid of emoticons.

\o/ well-written & compellingly readable
/o\ while reading it I don't think about whether the characters are OOC or IC because I'm pretty much ooooooohing and aaahhhhhhhhhing my whole way through, but after I think, wow, these dudes are not the canon dudes
\o/ atmospheric as all fuck
/o\ Sam is a BAMF, but his focus while he's in the suite is so narrow that he feels more pedantic and petty than impressive and intimidating. He does terrible shit and yet a lot of the time I tend to think, "Wow, Sam you're so annoying."
\o/ inventive and interesting in its use of superpowers and satanic magic
/o\ the plot is too cyclical/recycled. Dean won't give in, or not give in perfectly enough for the strident specifications of a very strict, demanding Sam and then Sam does some horrible shit, Dean suffers, lather, rinse, repeat.
\o/ horrifyingly descriptive
caveat: I'm rly more of a drama reader than a darkfic reader, and will ask more from darkfic than I will from crack or any other genre.

rating: idek. read if you want, and judge for yourself.
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* I have some of [profile] yourperiphery 's fics. If anybody wants them, hit me up.

* Apparently, only [profile] jetaimerai hasn't received the Holiday package. Everybody else got theirs. I sent another today, because it's not fair you haven't gotten anything. If you get two, dollface, then good for you.

* I made an easily misunderstood cis-sounding comment in Fanficrants and so I'm trying to find books that deal with transgendered people. I have friends who are transgendered and *TMITMITMIcoolstorybro* but that means diddly, and I'm well aware of how "I have friends who are X, Y, Z" sounds. In fact, I'm not even sure I'm using the term correctly or I sound like a cis-douche. Funnily enough, I was reading Beauty Queens and got some surprise ex-Boybander/Transgendered woman (inspired by Justin Timberlake, I shit you not) and I saw it as destiny. Fate doesn't want me to be an ignorant cis and this will the year of LEARNING. My F-list if fabulous, so if you guys have read any novels or nonfiction about any of this or have watched amazing life-altering movies, pls help me.

* I told my bff I wanted to read Proust this year, because of reasons having to do with wanting to make ALL THE SHIT democratic, and she said, "Ew." And I was like, rme bitch, don't discourage me, and she was all like, "If Proust was alive these days he'd be a twitter addict. 'For a long time I used to go to bed early.' What the hell is that?" LOLIRL Nonetheless, I'm gonna strive to read Vol. I 'cause, damn it. Proust should be read by errybody, snobby dickheads be damned.

* Read the second book of the Vampire Academy series (Frostbite) and liked it plenty less than the first. I did snort at the killing-of-dude-for-womanpain, but meh. Read The Privilege of the Sword and enjoyed it more than I thought I would after not rly enjoying The Fall of Kings. I was super surprised that there was a rape scene in it, because the mood didn't seem to merit it (yeah, I know, that sounds weird; wtf is the mood for rape?) Like, okay, Riverside used to be a brutal place back in the day, but in this novel there was no resonance to any of the tragedies. It was like, weirdly lighthearted rape, murder and disability. o.O Plus, as always with Kushner's stuff, the threads feel a bit loose and frayed. I know, nit picker from nit picker hell. Idek. It's not like I necessarily consider this a flaw, but I just always feel like I'm going to meet people who are not going to matter further on and that there will be plots that will be left hanging in the air or resolve themselves abruptly. I once read the phrase "fanfic for invisible canon" and I think I could apply that to TPotS. Despite all this bitchin' I liked it. 3 star-eyes or whatever.

* WATCHED ALL THE REVENGE AND IT WAS GLORIOUS. you bitches probably never watched Telenovelas, but this is the Girlfriend Telenovela experience. i? am incredibly addicted and anybody who loves to see fierce bitches displaying their fierce bitchery like fiercely bitching bitches should watch it. :D

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* On other news, I'm still on Season 2 of Lost. :D I regret nothing, no surplus of fucks given here.
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* “the reichenbach fall” was beautiful. Ngl, as an SPN fandomer I was totally envious of the You-Know-What scenes, they were poignant and heartfelt and at no moment did I sense I was being manipulated. I felt like sending these episodes to Gamble and Co. and saying, “See here? This is how you send people off.”

* I exist in a continuous state of appreciation life Jared Padalecki and I respect his work as an actor, which I think has improved through the years, but the dude talks shit...or he sounds like an ignoramoose when he tries to excuse SPN's writers for their logic-defying fuckery. First of all, Castiel didn't hate Sam or dislike him or whatever the fuck he said about Castiel, and Sam does not hate or dislike him back. Just because an interviewer says, “X doesn't like Sam,” you don't have to say, “Well, Sam doesn't like X either.” Seriously. Also dude! Castiel as a god was not going to prevent SPN from having awesome plots and awesome episodes, mainly for Iron Man, Superman, Captain America, Hulk, Superhero reasons. Because you can have a super powerful being exist and still have conflict and danger. Really. What you can't do is make it abundantly clear that the boys will survive a nuke if they just get inside a fridge and that every single guest star is cannon fodder, a redshirt on Star Trek, a gay character in a drama, a child's pet goldfish, a poc in a scary movie, don't get attached guys, thisshowisabouttwobrothersandfuckcharacterarcsandjourneysandtherulesofscreenwritingorwritingingeneralforreasonshavingtodowithreasons.

* Did I enjoy Time After Time? yes I did. But like everything in SPN these days, I have my reservations. I LOVVVVVVVVVEEEEEE Veronica Mars season 1&2, because it is made out of amazeballs and awesomesauce with a cheery of epic on top, and a good part of that epic and amazeballs was the Veronica/Logan chemistry, which was Jared&Jensen proportions of wonderfulness. and so I expected a lot more Dohring than I got. Yay! Dean being a fanboy in a fedora, but woe! Dohring is sarcastic, bitter, and wittily hilarious given the right dialogue and what do we get instead? A bland, sappy semi-powerful god who told the bros that their title sequence was a representation of their future. Which, yeah. OTOH, yes, fanboy Dean in a fedora. :D Hawt like fiah.

*Megaupload just got busted, guys. Get ready because the zombies are coming.

Winter Reading Part Deux
(most of these fics were found through pianoforeplay and unfitforsociety, so thanks, dolls.)
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Winter Reading List Part I

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Let's Pretend the War is Over [Harry/Draco] written by [personal profile] pir8fancier & read by [personal profile] raitala
Author's Dedication: To Draco Malfoy, who, despite being batshit insane, noticed that I needed to say good-bye to my father.

Jensen Inside [Jared/Jensen, R, ALL THE PRETTY WORDS] by [profile] glassyskies
Summary: Having it Out with Melancholy

♥ i guess it's kind of funny/odd/o.O that i'd read and love these fics considering that one of my fandom nonos are fics where the characters psychoanalyze each other or talk to each other with mainstream psychology 101 terms. a lot of it has to do with the fact that i don't think dementia can be cured by following a set of predetermined steps, because a process depends on more than following instructions. i also don't like to feel like the diagnosis determines the characters more than the personality of the character determines the character. with a lot of fics that deal with mental illness it often feels like the titillation of dealing with the illness takes precedent over the search for understanding the people who suffer from it-- and idek. i just don't like that. this was not the case with these fics, though, and that's why i love them. they make me wanna read Virginia Woolf's 'Mrs. Dalloway' and her posthumously published letters, which i think is a good sign. o.O

♥ i decided to try the "Let's Pretend The War is Over" audiofic because i'd listened to raitala before and she has a simple voice that is inconspicuous enough not to get in the way of whatever story she's telling. i'd rather listen to an understated reading than overacting, which takes me out of the story faster than you can say William Shatner (i love you, Will!).

♥ it was cool to hear this fic first and then read "Jensen Inside" because --wow-- Draco and Jensen could not be different-er ;D. sure they both suffer from dementia, but one mental state is not like another, and people ain't either. yet there was a certain gorgeous frailty to both of them that spoke to me. it felt like sharing that fic-world was like being dropped inside a snow globe, except that the crystal was so delicate that one brush of the fingertips against the surface of the glass would be enough to crack it.

♥ in "Let's Pretend" Draco has these rules he has to follow in order to stay right on the edge of his (in)sanity and not fall over into the abyss. the issue here is that since he can't really trust himself (his moments of lucidity allow him to realize that he's not all there, there) many of his hallucinations are --in fact-- not hallucinations at all. in Draco's case, he has lost his family, friends, his social standing. the world has forsaken him, become the enemy, and so gradually the loss becomes a palpable thing for him. the world a monster called "The Outside" ready to contaminate him with its nothingness.

♥ in Jensen's case, the dementia comes because of-- nothing at all, apparently. it's like Joker's line in "The Dark Knight" Madness, as you know, is a lot like gravity, all it takes is a little push. Jensen's madness is like this latent seed that pulses inside and is at any moment ready to grow out like creeping ivy. there are rules here also, i guess, but they are much less concrete, much more complex and intricate. Draco is much more adversarial than Jensen is, and so he creates these insanity gods which he simultaneously obeys and plots against. with Jensen it's an insidious silent painful thing that can't be pointed to, obliterated, personified in any way. like the Tao of insanity or something.

“Once upon a time, I, Chuang Chou, dreamt I was a butterfly cockroach, fluttering creeping hither and thither, to all intents and purposes a butterfly insect. I was conscious only of my happiness melancholia as a butterfly cockroach, unaware that I was Chou. Soon I awakened, and there I was, veritably myself again. Now I do not know whether I was then a man dreaming I was a butterfly cockroach, or whether I am now a butterfly cockroach, dreaming I am a man. Between a man and a butterfly cockroach there is necessarily a distinction. The transition is called the transformation of material things.”
― Zhuangzi (Kafkad by me xP)

♥ in both fics there was a learning curve that their partners had to go through in order to -- dare I say-- help? with Jared it was anger and denial at first. incomprehension and guilt. with Harry it was his natural impetuousness, his blundering desire to fix and save. they learned a lot, though, from the love, from the pain and the heartache. there's a Francesca Lia Block passage that talks about how pain can make you see more or it can blind you, depends on what you do with it. both of these fics show that even when it tries to blind you, there's always second sight.

yeah, okay, so i like hope. suck it. ;D

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* awesome conversation with [personal profile] lettered (who knows ALL THE THINGS about magical realism and is really impressive --but not annoying-- about it) on the subject of magical realism and urban fantasy (NOT THE SAME PEOPLE, NOT THE SAME) here. if you guys want to write me/rec me some magical realism, i would not be opposed.

i think magical realism was born in Latin America because in Latin cultures in informal settings you're kind of expected to hyperbolize and make really expressive hand gestures to make whatever story you're telling interesting and convey ALL THE FEELINGS and not just the happenings while you do it. the listener will then just sift through the figurative language to get to whatever actually happened, but in an instinctive way. so nobody thinks "lies, lies, exaggeration" they just know that when you tell a story, you're always editing and adding and taking away, and factual retelling of events would lack the feelings and they'd have to extrapolate anyway, to get at the psychology and the relationships. because objectivity is a mental state and like all mental states, it's subjective and influenced by perception. so yeah. magical realism is REALLY different from urban fantasy (which depends on worldsplaining and building). not better. different.

* End of the Year Book Flail: Gone with the Wind (yay), The Lincoln Lawyer (boo!), Push (yay), Pope Joan (meh), Silver Phoenix (first it was yay then meh then boo!), Jane Eyre (yay), The Wet Nurse's Tale (yay), Whisling in the Dark (boo!), The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo (first I was zzzzz then I was yay! capricious, i know, it happens), Blood Brothers (not my cuppa), The Ghost Wore Yellow Socks (meh), Wes and Toreth (meh), Zero at the Bone (boo!), Dead until Dark (double boo!), Mockingjay (meh), The Road (yay), The Boy in the Stripped Pajamas (yay), The Panda's Thumb (yay), Catching Fire (yay), The Graveyard Book (yay), Havemercy (yay), Shadowmagic (yay), Liquor: A Novel (yay), Swordspoint (yay), The Mismeasure of Man (yay), The Hunger Games (yay), Kushiel's dart (yay), Dragon Soul (yay), The Master and Margarita (yay), Slaughterhouse Five (yay), Return of the Black Death (yay), Heist Society (yay), Uncommon Criminals (yay), Maybe this Time (yay), Welcome to Temptation (meh), Demon's Surrender (yay), Practical Magic (yay), The Living Dead (yay), The Living Dead 2 (yay), Red Glove (yay), The Witching Hour (meh), The Grand Sophy (mostly yay with some boo!), As Meat Loves Salt (double yay), Feed (double yay), Gaia: a new look at life on earth (yay), The Forrest of Hands and Teeth (yay), An Assembly such as this (Fitzwilliam Darcy Gentleman) (cool), Just one of the Guys (cute), Coundown (a novella| cool), uglies (yay), pretties (yay), specials(yay), The Fall of Kings (meh), Neptune Noir (a collection of essays on Veronica Mars| cool), White Cat (yay), Skinned (yay), Crashed (yay), All I ever Wanted (cute), Blood and Chocolate (yay), Deadline (cool), Conquistadora (cool), Island Beneath the Sea (yay), Lovely Bones (disturbingly yay), American Gods (yay), The Bell Jar (surprisingly easy read, a lovely yay), The Count of Monte Christo (yay).

in conclusion: i like most of what i read, though sometimes i change my mind about whether i've liked or hated a book the more i think about it. i seem to hate professional slash and find it badfic'ish, i like zombies a lot, i don't hate the romance genre (or at least some permutations of it) and i really enjoy YA dystopias.
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* I LOVE MY NEW LAYOUT! omg. well, my last layout by [personal profile] faithwood was gorgeous, and i feel confident i would have never changed it if LJ hadn't played with my emotions, by taking away my ability to see who posted/icons on my friend's list, but this one is pretty too. :D

* i made another journal over @ dreamwidth. friend me if you like.

* i've been belatedly sending cards --i got sick AGAIN (this year i've gotten sick like 4 times) to the people who asked me for them (i sent everyone who wanted ONLY cards, books too 'cause--). some of you will get them in January because i'll be traveling -- but you can all pretend you celebrate the Twelve days of Christmas and that it's for Epiphany. xP or that it's a Christmasy Valentine's card, whatever. lol

* so there was that anonymous love meme running around, and i left it till too late and now, guess what? everybody gave their love and i didn't give mine and that's not fair. so here it is! my gratitude and love, show-offy and for everyone to see. <33333333333

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Some nonanonymous Love )
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so this round could pretty much be called "Second Chances" because that seems to be the main theme of fics, or maybe i'm just noticing that more because that's the theme of the Holidays for me. second and third and eighth fucking chances if that's what you need to look at yr life and look at yr choices (DON'T TELL ME THE SASSY GAY FRIEND DIDN'T REMIND YOU OF THE GHOST OF X-MAS PRESENT!) and start making something out of yrself before yr dead and buried and all the chances came and went, like inconstant lovers or some shit like that.

i'm using [livejournal.com profile] faithwood's lovely little table for ALL THE RECS, because of reasons (convenient ones). thanx, ~faith.

Humbug [Harry/Draco, NC-17, 30K] by anon @ [livejournal.com profile] hd_holidays
Summary:Draco has been taking his casual relationship with Harry for granted. Visits from four key ghosts the night before Christmas just might shake up his priorities in life.

this is the kind of fic that you never knew you wanted, but as you're reading it you ask yourself "HOW DID I LIVE IN FANDOM WITHOUT EVER READING A FIC LIKE THIS?" "A Christmas Carol" reinvented, with an awesome/douchey Brian Kinney-like!Draco finding out that having a lovely, beautiful person in his life who adores him is more important than having all the Galleons in the world. specially when he already has all the Galleons in the world, and what he's lacking's a consistent amount of awesome nekkid lovely boy. also? Snape is the best Sassy Het Friend ever. even if he really has to look at himself and his hair choices.

Defused [Dean/Castiel, PG-13, 3K] by [livejournal.com profile] angel_kink
Summary:Dean is determined to defuse Castiel while simultaneously dealing with the repercussions of Sam’s wall breaking.

overall, really enjoyable. the writing style wasn't always my cuppa because 1) i'm a picky mcpicker 2) i never go for: They were tears of fear, sadness, and pain all at the same time. i don't want to be told that the tears are of fear, sadness and pain. i want to decide those things for myself, i want to feel that they are of fear, sadness, whatever, without being told they are. however, this is fic was a detailed, awesome blueprint of exactly what i wished had happened in canon, specially on the Castiel front. so! all in all, i pronounce it cool.

The Jared Padalecki Untitled Project [JP/JA, NC-17, Long-fic] by [livejournal.com profile] sometimesophie
Summary: After Supernatural, Jensen and Jared aren't talking. But a film's a film and Jensen could really use the money.

* in the immortal words of my little niece while we were watching Sense and Sensibility last night, "OMG WHY DON'T THEY JUST TALK?"
* i was gonna compare this fic to Pride and Prejudice, but then I realized it was more like "Persuasion"-- JA's last novel.
* don't believe me? believe wiki: More than seven years prior to the events in the novel, Anne Elliot falls in love with a handsome young naval officer named Frederick Wentworth, who is intelligent and ambitious, but poor. Sir Walter, Anne's father and lord of the family estate of Kellynch, and her older sister Elizabeth are dissatisfied with her choice, maintaining that he is not distinguished enough for their family. Her older friend and mentor, Lady Russell, acting in place of Anne's deceased mother, persuades her to break off the match.

Now, aged 27 and still unmarried, Anne re-encounters her former fiancé when his sister and brother-in-law, the Crofts, take out a lease on Kellynch. Wentworth, now a captain, is wealthy from wartime victories in the Royal Navy and from prize-money for capturing enemy ships. However, he has not forgiven Anne for her rejection of him.

The self-interested machinations of Anne's father, her older sister Elizabeth, Elizabeth's friend Mrs. Clay, and William Elliot (Anne's cousin and her father's heir) constitute important subplots.

* told ya.
* also, in Austenian fashion, money is an issue. because, well, money IS an issue.
* i love second chances, and i love this fic, for all it is and all it chooses to be.
* i do think that we could have seen a bit more of why J was so willing to give J a chance, because, dear Lord-- on reread it's hard to figure out J's motivation *vague vague vague 'cause spoilers* outside of wanting to apply for sainthood.

Cause You've got an Awefully Long Way to Go [Puck/Kurt, PG-13, 10K] by [livejournal.com profile] paperclipbitch
Summary:“Let me get this straight,” Kurt begins, resisting the urge to laugh, “you knocked up Finn’s girlfriend and you want to apologise to him by trying to make him gay?”

this fic is funny and sexy and adorable, and i love love love it when douchey teenage boys turn a new leaf. because that's what being a teenager is all about, first being a douche and then turning into a human being once you learn to see other people as human beings, too. :D
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Blind/Dates by ~Captanddeastar
* Charming, Adorable, Flawless, Lovely Etc.
* Rom-comy without being annoying about it.
* Peter is Captain Oblivious, and yes, I've met people like that who are brilliant but wouldn't know you were flirting with them if you hit them on the nose with your undies.
* Neal is the Ambassador of Sexy and Elizabeth is as epic as always.
* OT3 forever, bb.

A Lot of Walking by ~Ewinfic
* So I read the A/N about the Big Gay Freakout and thought it was gonna be a combo of funny and heartbreaking-- well, it was crack on top of crack on top of more crack.
* John was awesome as Gay (But really Heterosexual) Zen Master.
* Their "Sexy" conversation is too graphic to be passionate, imo, so again? Crack.

You have one saved Message by ~Killabeez
* Well-written, but just a smidgen too sappy for me. I need more restraint in my fics, or something. IDEK.


Lady and the Tramp by Joanna Johnen
Flaws upon your sleeve by ~Glassy Skies
Fucking Sebastian Roché. All his fault. Go to drama school, grow your talent, London will be good for you, blah blah blah.  )
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"Turkey Shoot" by Pink Kafka

friction match
"It's the end of the world. You can be anyone you choose to be." Daryl Dixon, at the end of the world.
Daryl, Glenn, Rick, Andrea, ensemble. Gen, with canon pairings. Daryl & Glenn friendship.
~24,800 (complete)

* I love apocafics because I like when people get stretched to their very limits. most love stories (i'm not saying love is this way --cause I don't like to make generalizations because in yr life love might be unicorns, but fiction, ya know?) are apocafics in a way, anyway, so.
* last time I read a story from a hick pov, I was reading Twain. this is part of what I love about fanfiction, that its gaze based on girl gaze, based on queer or bi girl gaze, based on straight girl who is interested in queering gaze. that gaze finds beauty and finds understanding in even the types of dudes who are usually nothing but the butts of "Deliverance" jokes.
* i read it as UST between Glenn and Daryl, and then I read it as Gen and it works either way because the author finds/shows the passion of family and friendship.
* i'm rly interested in family (duh) and I tend to MOST enjoy fandoms where family features heavily, like SPN, HP and TWD. i was thinking about how Daryl is like Draco, who has to grow up and reject his family in order to find his family.

Rating: (x(x_(X_x(o_O)x_x)_X)x)
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the family business
“I don’t want to pay you for sex,” she said, in a tone of voice that implied that Dean was clearly the dumbest kid in the class. “I don’t want a one-night stand,” she told him condescendingly, “I want a sperm donor. Moron.”
sam/dean (supernatural)
15,000 words

"Sleep Well America" by Petite Madame

* omg, when i thought about reading this fic again i didn't remember HOW FUCKING FUNNY THIS FIC WAS!
“I’ll give you five hundred bucks.”

The parking lot was absolutely silent. Finally, two sounds interrupted the quiet – Dean shouting, “Lady, are you crazy?!” and Sam cracking up with huge guffaws.

Dean was completely shocked and appalled – at least partly because he’d actually considered it for a minute. Hey, the girl was hot, and he probably would have done her anyway. But then again, she might be evil, and also, hello, not a whore.

“Hello, not a whore,” he told the crazy lady.

She rolled her eyes again. “I don’t want to pay you for sex,” she said, in a tone of voice that implied that Dean was clearly the dumbest kid in the class. “I don’t want a one-night stand,” she told him condescendingly, “I want a sperm donor. Moron.”

Sam cracked up again while Dean just stood there and tried to process.

Not-Desdemona watched him try to cope.

“Well,” she said at last, “Thank God I’m not depending on your genes for the brains, that’s all I’ll say.”

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The Enterprise's first mission under the (official) captaincy of James T. Kirk.

"Vulcan Massages" by Glockart

* This fanart actually crackily encompasses what this fic is all about. Pining!Kirk and the evolution of his relationship with Spock, shaped by the residue left by that infamous mind-meld.
* I've never watched TOS so I don't know if it's true, but I read a few comments and apparently the author rewrote TOS episodes with the Reboot cast. If that's a draw for anyone then, cool.
* This was Gen Slash, meaning that the plot was as important as the "porn." Which, yeah, I totally enjoyed.
* The prose wasn't remarkably beautiful, but I liked it. It flowed, didn't feel clunky or like it got in the way of the story and the characterizations were IC and well-rounded.
* I loved how the author began a fic where Spock and Kirk were not even friends and then successfully showed the slow and convincing progress of their passionate relationship, all the while making them go in fun but increasingly dangerous adventures.
* Pon Farr, bitches, Pon Farr.

Rating: >:-I >:-I >:-I >:-I ha!
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easy on the clutch
in which sam turns sixteen in panabaker, new hampshire, and dean teaches him to drive.
sam/dean (supernatural)
31,000 words
I loved this story and could not give less of a shit that there's no clutch in the Impala, because as the author says, this story is not really about driving. I'd read the fic a while ago, but I must say I loved it more than the first time. Back in the day, when I first read it I totally expected fics to be like this-- well-written, with fleshed out characters, and plots that jived with the way I look at canon. And yeah, fics that said something about life in a way. Now, I can appreciate this much more, having read many fics where nope, nothing like that seems to happen and the writer uses their fic to push a particular agenda, rather than trying to discover/reflect something. This story could have gone on forever and I wouldn't have minded. I just wanted to live in that sad, poignant little world where the boys stuck out like sore thumbs, Sam was becoming a man and Dean was thought of as the creepy older brother rather than as the bad-boy cool one.

Gushing in bulletsies:

* I really like when Dean and Sam know each other (duh) and yet, are still a mystery to each other as well. Irreplaceable Intimacy + Insurmountable Differences = Delish Conflict. It's the kind of conflict we see on the show, where Sam goes to Standford and becomes a stranger, and then Sam drinks blood and becomes a stranger, and then Robo!Sam and he becomes a stranger and here he is in a Pre-Standford fic, the first of such metamorphosis becoming a stranger to Dean who no longer knows how to be his big brother/father/mother. I was reading "Practical Magic" (totally different from the movie, by the way) at the same time, and it reminded me of how Sally felt about her teenage daughter Kylie.

Sam is harder, though. He's always changing—body shifting right in front of Dean's eyes, muscles rippling up out of nowhere, veins in his forearms surfacing overnight. The baby fat's already hollowing out from his cheeks and the bones in his face are sharp and angular now, so his smile almost looks too big.

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* so apparently when i say "i'm gonna do the blogowrimo" i mean i will watch "Arrested Development: and "Parks and Recreation" ignore the hell out of LJ, read books, and lurk like a hor on tumblr.

* i've been using a DW to private post my favorite fics because SPN has made me afraid as fuck of losing all the fics i hold close to my heart because some brilliantly talented author no longer feels any joy in this fandom and doesn't want (totally justifiable, because it's every author's right) to post their fics online. what do you guys do to save your favorite fics?

*pls to not be talking to me about the latest episode, because i haven't watched it-- I'm scared to. I feel so hopeless ever since Castiel went the way of Virginia Wolf and I haven't been able to feel the same joy and excitement I used to feel when I watched the show, and I'm just really apprehensive. though I'm actually kind of weird since sometimes tragedy makes me go in the other direction-- like "Glory" with Den Washington: that kind of tragedy lifts me up into the stratosphere. I'm not sure though, that SPN can deliver that amount of beautiful catharsis.

* want a card or a card and a book? made by little old me? go here! xP some awesomesauce bitches have already signed up. don't miss out on my cracktastic fanart cards and flawless taste in gay books! ;DDDDD

FanReading List for the Holidays.
i encourage y'all to do this, create your own reading lists of fics and comment, because comments are ♥ and authors everyone can use a little ♥ during the Holidays.
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if anybody wants a card, apply here :D:D:D:D:D i love to make cards, believe it or not. xP also, if you want me to send you a book, tell me and i'll send you one. i tend to have more than one copy of queerlit books around, as part of my evil gay agenda? so i'll be more than happy to send you a well-thumbed or new copy of one of my favorite/at the very least entertaining le gay books. the condition is that you have to read the novel and then tell me if you hate it or love it or have decided that the best use for it would be to use as kindling or as a chafey substitute for toilet paper.

i'm screening the comments. <3



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