idk. i think the word "love" means such different things in different contexts. like in fandom it means "you make me feel flaily and fannish and enthusiastic over all the things i feel flaily and fannish and enthusiastic about." like fanartists and fanwriters and other fans feed the fire of your hobby so you love them, specially when there's an affinity to love in the way you love, or in the way you admire other's loving. like, i can't unreservedly squee, but i can admire others unreservedly squeeing because that's an ability i'll never have (again), but wish i did. there's a purity in seeing beauty in everything and seeing good intentions, rather than criticizing and distrusting. it's all about perception, so why the hell not?
but offline love's more about loss and the potential that the love will be used as a weapon or -- idk. have you read the Good Earth? when these parents are cooing over their baby boy and suddenly they look around and are all like, "er, the baby is a girl child!" so that the gods don't become jealous of the baby boy's beauty and health and strength and try to sap it? which is sad, because being a girl child shouldn't have to mean yr worthless and nobody could ever be jealous of you, but you know what i mean. so my love is a girl child, shoo jealous fucking gods, go get yr own goddamned love and leave mine alone.
but yr brave and open and i'm closed and cynical, so it fits that the words would just escape before you could even consider reining them in. ;D
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Date: 2011-11-06 09:53 pm (UTC)but offline love's more about loss and the potential that the love will be used as a weapon or -- idk. have you read the Good Earth? when these parents are cooing over their baby boy and suddenly they look around and are all like, "er, the baby is a girl child!" so that the gods don't become jealous of the baby boy's beauty and health and strength and try to sap it? which is sad, because being a girl child shouldn't have to mean yr worthless and nobody could ever be jealous of you, but you know what i mean. so my love is a girl child, shoo jealous fucking gods, go get yr own goddamned love and leave mine alone.
but yr brave and open and i'm closed and cynical, so it fits that the words would just escape before you could even consider reining them in. ;D