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swan_biteUnder the weather like nobody's business. Makes sense that now that I have a bit more fandom time on my hands because RL has quieted down a bit, I come down with a case of the emineffin' plague. I have to start exercising again, my constitution is for crap. Anyway, whine over (or let me whine about something else ;D) bullets to the rescue.
* Idk bbs. Is it just me or does this fandom like to see drama in the interwebs as well as on the screen? The restarted Sam girl v.s. Dean girl war thingy is so ridiculous. It's like now that canon's gotten rid of Castiel (got linked to a comment by mod from ontd spn who seemed to be dancing on his fictional grave-- which-- wow, dick move mod, I can't shit-talk j2 or Sera but you can Confetti! It's a parade! over the death of a fictional character a lot of people love?) by way of the most infamous Sam-girl ever, these people can go back to blaming one brother while excusing everything the other does, effectively demonizing one bro while infantilizing the other. And that's what it takes to be a True Fan? Blind love for one character? Count me right out, Stan and Bella. I'm Team Get Some Fucking Perspective. Bias: I'm a Sam- girl. Do I feel like Dean just betrayed him, and poor Sam on top of everything else, blah blah blah?...nope because
* Sure, Dean fucked up, horribly in fact, but that he lied to Sam is emotional collateral damage to the fact that Dean killed a mother in front of her child, became someone's YED, blithely ruined some kid's life. Some kid who could have chosen not to kill like his mother did (yeah, yeah, until she did for her kid), and who is now poisoned by an unquenchable thirst for revenge. /emo
* So canon drops that bag of poo on my doorstep, I go to my flist for a bit of comfort and step into a stinking pile of, "Yeah, he killed her, i understand because Dean lashes cute omygod and girl vagina carrier meh no1curr but what got me was that he lied to Sam.". O.o. What? In the land of horrible sexism a woman's (yeah I know she was a creature, but as canon took pains to stress she was also a girl, a woman, a mother and much more than that) life is worth less than an emotional injury done to a fellow dick carrier. Apparently in Fandom, the handsomer the protagonist dick carrier, the less the female character's currency (her reasons, situation, life) is worth.
* I know this is unjust of me, and I shouldn't generalize about Fandom like that-- but it's just so disappointing sometimes, to witness that kind of overt fail from people who are so cool and otherwise decent. It makes me look at people in RL distrustfully, like they could be thinking thoughts like that too except they keep them inside because they're not in an LJ comm or in a forum or whatever. Then again, I myself indulge in faily sexism I'm sure --I try not to is my bestest pathetic defense-- so I have no room to be finger pointing anyone.
* On other news, Pushkin is surprisingly like, easy to read. Read "Eugene Onegin" and it was a total breeze even though the narrator kept getting into it so much ("omg, Pushkin, fuck off!"). Also, I always said I didn't read Romance Novels until this year and I was sooooooooo wrong. Was rereading "The Witching Hour" by Batshit Rice (I'd read her as young teen) and erm-- that shit is a Romance Novel with witches. Also, I have so little patience with fanfics where they describe the characters in loving detail --I think that's kind of the height of amateurish because I'm a horrible nitpicker who picks...nits-- and apparently I had no trouble with that as a teen. Reading so much Fanfic has really made me think about writing, I guess, from a pseudo-technical pov. I was rolling my eyes so much I had trouble reading. Not that I didn't enjoy it, in a way, but I could see the cracks and the stuff I thought came from being unpublished and using fanfic as practice, which hey! totally valid as a fanfic'er less valid when you're a professional asking for the monies. Anyway, point is? Reading fanfic has made me a thinkier reader, which -- cool. Unexpected upside to seeking entertainment.
* Comic rec: Teahouse. My icon is from there, and isn't he pretty?
* Rec'd with prejudice: Land of the Blind I have cycles where I'm just continually hankering for a good apocafic and then cycles where I run away screaming like the fic is a zombie tryna eat my brainz. Also, I love Candle_Beck and her voice. Her voice was custom-made by Chuck to read SPN fic, for real. It's just so boyish, straight-talk, true grit sounding it drives me to eargasms (not actual orgasms, i'm not THAT creepy). Though sometimes, I admit my wussiness readily, I'm wary of her stuff -- because the writing is so honest that I never feel manipulated into feeling and so --fuck my heart breaking-- it cleaves me in two. Some of her fics I love more than others (I RESENT SOME OF HER FICS LIKE TRAUMAS) because I always enjoy hopeful, more than I love hopeless, and this fic, despite being apocalyptic (notice how I don't say POST-apocalyptic, meaning the apocalypse is not over folks), had a hopeful ending. Because, (shut up, I know it's trite) we all kinda go through an apocalypse of our own worlds. We all die. The story always ends with death, but what happens before that? Can leave you trembling, and hollow, and curled under the bed, or trembling, and full and stretched out on top of that same goddamned bed, hopefully next to someone else.
* Idk bbs. Is it just me or does this fandom like to see drama in the interwebs as well as on the screen? The restarted Sam girl v.s. Dean girl war thingy is so ridiculous. It's like now that canon's gotten rid of Castiel (got linked to a comment by mod from ontd spn who seemed to be dancing on his fictional grave-- which-- wow, dick move mod, I can't shit-talk j2 or Sera but you can Confetti! It's a parade! over the death of a fictional character a lot of people love?) by way of the most infamous Sam-girl ever, these people can go back to blaming one brother while excusing everything the other does, effectively demonizing one bro while infantilizing the other. And that's what it takes to be a True Fan? Blind love for one character? Count me right out, Stan and Bella. I'm Team Get Some Fucking Perspective. Bias: I'm a Sam- girl. Do I feel like Dean just betrayed him, and poor Sam on top of everything else, blah blah blah?...nope because
* Sure, Dean fucked up, horribly in fact, but that he lied to Sam is emotional collateral damage to the fact that Dean killed a mother in front of her child, became someone's YED, blithely ruined some kid's life. Some kid who could have chosen not to kill like his mother did (yeah, yeah, until she did for her kid), and who is now poisoned by an unquenchable thirst for revenge. /emo
* So canon drops that bag of poo on my doorstep, I go to my flist for a bit of comfort and step into a stinking pile of, "Yeah, he killed her, i understand because Dean lashes cute omygod and girl vagina carrier meh no1curr but what got me was that he lied to Sam.". O.o. What? In the land of horrible sexism a woman's (yeah I know she was a creature, but as canon took pains to stress she was also a girl, a woman, a mother and much more than that) life is worth less than an emotional injury done to a fellow dick carrier. Apparently in Fandom, the handsomer the protagonist dick carrier, the less the female character's currency (her reasons, situation, life) is worth.
* I know this is unjust of me, and I shouldn't generalize about Fandom like that-- but it's just so disappointing sometimes, to witness that kind of overt fail from people who are so cool and otherwise decent. It makes me look at people in RL distrustfully, like they could be thinking thoughts like that too except they keep them inside because they're not in an LJ comm or in a forum or whatever. Then again, I myself indulge in faily sexism I'm sure --I try not to is my bestest pathetic defense-- so I have no room to be finger pointing anyone.
* On other news, Pushkin is surprisingly like, easy to read. Read "Eugene Onegin" and it was a total breeze even though the narrator kept getting into it so much ("omg, Pushkin, fuck off!"). Also, I always said I didn't read Romance Novels until this year and I was sooooooooo wrong. Was rereading "The Witching Hour" by Batshit Rice (I'd read her as young teen) and erm-- that shit is a Romance Novel with witches. Also, I have so little patience with fanfics where they describe the characters in loving detail --I think that's kind of the height of amateurish because I'm a horrible nitpicker who picks...nits-- and apparently I had no trouble with that as a teen. Reading so much Fanfic has really made me think about writing, I guess, from a pseudo-technical pov. I was rolling my eyes so much I had trouble reading. Not that I didn't enjoy it, in a way, but I could see the cracks and the stuff I thought came from being unpublished and using fanfic as practice, which hey! totally valid as a fanfic'er less valid when you're a professional asking for the monies. Anyway, point is? Reading fanfic has made me a thinkier reader, which -- cool. Unexpected upside to seeking entertainment.
* Comic rec: Teahouse. My icon is from there, and isn't he pretty?
* Rec'd with prejudice: Land of the Blind I have cycles where I'm just continually hankering for a good apocafic and then cycles where I run away screaming like the fic is a zombie tryna eat my brainz. Also, I love Candle_Beck and her voice. Her voice was custom-made by Chuck to read SPN fic, for real. It's just so boyish, straight-talk, true grit sounding it drives me to eargasms (not actual orgasms, i'm not THAT creepy). Though sometimes, I admit my wussiness readily, I'm wary of her stuff -- because the writing is so honest that I never feel manipulated into feeling and so --fuck my heart breaking-- it cleaves me in two. Some of her fics I love more than others (I RESENT SOME OF HER FICS LIKE TRAUMAS) because I always enjoy hopeful, more than I love hopeless, and this fic, despite being apocalyptic (notice how I don't say POST-apocalyptic, meaning the apocalypse is not over folks), had a hopeful ending. Because, (shut up, I know it's trite) we all kinda go through an apocalypse of our own worlds. We all die. The story always ends with death, but what happens before that? Can leave you trembling, and hollow, and curled under the bed, or trembling, and full and stretched out on top of that same goddamned bed, hopefully next to someone else.
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Date: 2011-10-09 12:23 am (UTC)I've been wanting to say something about the toxicity of this fandom for a while, but I hate to make people feel bad, because don't know what it is about this fandom (or maybe it's more generalised than that) but people seem to want to take things really personal regardless of whether it's meant that way or not. It's like any form of criticism gets blown up and made into something it just...ain't.
Dunno, trying to keep my gaze fixed on the positives right now, and not let my peripheral vision rest even for a moment on the vicious obsessives capering in the orange light of the bonfire erected so they can...immolate shit.
Get better soon.
(I'm watching ( I say watching when what I mean is that it's on the telly and the telly is on) Highlander: the source right now and it is DIRE!)
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Date: 2011-10-09 12:38 am (UTC)ontd is like the cracky (more cracky?) fandom version of Fox news, so its mods act as fair and balanced as that. for some strange reason, some rly awesome people act like the worst version of themselves whenever they're debating SPN.
lol don't feel too bad. i'm watching avatar...
& thanks for the well-wishes. :} <3