the evening after "Meet the New Boss"

[swan_bite]

first of all various forms of Sassy:

1.I'd marry your cat just to get in the family by wanttobeatree (so effin' funny, classic)
2.A HELICOPTER! (there's a reason why the title is in CAPS) by wanttobeatree
3.The Good Part About Hitting on Dean Winchester's Brother Is You Know He's Heard Worse Lines by probing_grays
4.Episodes Commenting @ Sassy OTP
5.When I forget by glassyskies
on this half-filled canvas of a boy this fic one of the most beautiful searing portraits of Castiel i've ever read and really jives with what i think of him. i think he's bit of an accident to his canon creators, half-formed in canon, fully realized through fandom and made all the better for it.


Thinky thoughts on "Meet the New Boss" aka the Office meets A Clockwork Orange

i've decided that I'm not going to spoil myself at all this year. i don't seem to have other fans' relationship with the show, where it's like SPN is their child and they are unable to think anything negative about it and any slight criticism hits them on their primal spot and all they can think of is to protect it, defend it, and eliminate all signs of hateration. which cool, but that's not me. my relationship is a little more like SPN is that significant other that has soooooo much potential, but fails about as many times at it succeeds, but when it succeeds it does so much that it kinda really compensates for the constant failures.

so rumors about it sucking in various ways? not gonna help maintain this relationship. i'll see what i'll see and if it's bad? then i'll deal and if it's not, angsting about it before that ain't gonna help.

also, i miss squishyball like cray-cray. i knew that i'd miss her if she ever decide her this was enough, but it was such a weird experience watching an episode without her, not in the chats and in twitter...though angel_kink made it an enjoyable experience, thank goodness. without her comments and squeeing i would have felt too lonesome, because nobody i know IRL follows SPN as much as i do.

i think i have to watch it again because the more i think about it the more i'm seeming to fixate on how Dean was checking-out not only with Sam but with Cas. sure, i understand his need to fix something tangible, and the Impala has given them loads so it's only fair he gives a bit back, but i don't like how he was using her as an excuse not to deal with Sam and Castiel. he really dropped the ball on this one.

simultaneously, i understand why he gave up. he hasn't gotten enough breaks lately and i guess hentai --may i say tentacle porn? is one way to solve it. at least he didn't go for that weird German shit. *shudders*

i want to regain the optimistic feeling i got that somehow Castiel will do a Sam-beats-Satan and save the day.

Comments

[angel-kink.livejournal.com]

aw, i'm glad i made it funner. i'll be on twitter next week too. not sure about the episodes after that because i'm not sure how much of this season i can stand.

[swan-bite.livejournal.com]

you did! and well, i'll take what i can get. for a lot of people fandom is all about the fanfic and fanart or about whatever, that is not connected to the other people in fandom (and that's how it is for me sometimes too) but-- yeah. these days the people in fandom are really shaping my experience. whenever i feel like giving it up i seem to borrow the squee from other people, so that works out.

[glassyskies.livejournal.com]

Hehe, I admit. I do kind of see SPN as my precious baby and I very rarely dislike anything that happens but I do... fret. And wring my hands a bit. And when other people point out the ways it sort of fails, I can dig that too.

Basically, very adoring but also laid back. I mean it'd be pretty boring if we all have the same perspective :D

ALSO YOUR REC WARMS MY SOUL WITH JOY FEELINGS OHGOSH. I could write Cas being sad and wonderful forever.

[swan-bite.livejournal.com]

you act like a loving+sane person, and that's good, bb. i'm not criticizing other's pov's on it, in fact, while i have to be critical about it for several reasons (including some guilt about watching it in the first place) i often borrow other's squee to coast through the rough patches. i might wail and rant, but then i go read missyjack's squeeful posts about how SPN is the most perfectest perfection ever to be perfected and i smile at her proud-mamaness and keep on keeping on.

yeah, well. i was describing your writing to someone and i was like, her writing is water after a hot day, you don't want to dip your toes in, you want to just let it envelop you completely and stay there, and float-- sometimes with people who have a signature way of writing (whose writing is more stylized than workmanlike) it's a bit of an effort to read. like, you have to be in the mood or something, because there's the real world and then there's that author's world and these two different worlds need some traversing. but, in your case, it's kind of effortless. i don't have to work up myself up for it, or be in a certain headspace like i do with other idiosyncratic authors which i --admittedly-- also enjoy. so yeah.

[glassyskies.livejournal.com]

Exactly! I love those who are more critically minded, they get perspectives on things I don't even consider and I love that beautiful mishmash.

Ah god *blush* I used to get so upset that I couldn't seem to stylize my work like others can (the prettiness, I adore it!), it's taken me a lot of years to be happy with the way I write - still, I get miserable over it from time to time - and you just kind of make me so glad to have MY style.

[swan-bite.livejournal.com]

for sure! :D:D:D


you should treasure that. to have style, to be so signature, to be able to convey yourself so uniquely and yet so clearly! it's a gift. like what i said about not sacrificing clarity for beauty or vice versa. sometimes that happens, when a writer is so involved in how s/he is communicating a message, a world, a character that the substance is forgotten. you never seem to lose sight of your story/character/message even when there's so much gorgeousness to the images you create.

like that line, about the boy who is a half-filled canvas. the image is so beautiful and striking and yet it's clearer than if you said "he has so much potential" or "his memories are gone half the time" or "i am filled with tenderness at the sight of him" or "there is frailty there" or "he is precious to me" or "i am kind of glad half of him is gone sometimes because maybe all-him wouldn't have any room for me in him" because it's not any of those things, but kind of all of them and whatever else the reader might fill in that empty side of the canvas.