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swan_bite\o/ saw "My Heart Will Go On" this morning because i had visitors yesterday, which sucked beyond belief. i was so looking forward to my very first SPN chat (usually i hang out at ONTD and abuse the hell of of gypsy's and squishy's gifs). alas it was not to be, and i had to watch it solo in the cold realistic light of a Saturday morning. :D the experience was a lot less fabulous than it would have accompanied by crazy squeeing bitches, but i still enjoyed the hell out Balzathar and --was it just me?-- or was Misha looking beautiful? pathos, suffering, lack of sleep look GORGEOUS on him. it is of my opinion, that Balthy ships Dean/Cas and tries to convince Cas to let him join in except that Cas has never gotten the courage to reveal his love and hadn't even thought of it/examined it until Balthy mentions it in passing, like it's a fact and congratulates him on his good taste because Dean "sure is pretty and if it was me I'd go back in time multiple times to hit for the first time all over again."
/o\ CAS COULD VERY WELL BREAK THE PLACE WHERE MY HEART IS SUPPOSED TO BE. i'm so scared of betrayals and lies and the irreparable break of their relationship, but at the same time? i watched this show for the monsters and the myth arcs and the conflicts, not for the rainbows, the unicorns and the puppies and one of three ain't bad. i think Cas will do something very bad, very disappointing, but Dean will forgive because Dean is a grown-up. grown-ups know that other grown-up Angels fucking up? that's to be expected. in fact, Cas fucking up means he's advanced in his relationship with Dean, because Dean getting fucked over and Dean getting over it is a part and parcel of being in a close relationship in Dean-land. look at his Dad, his brother, even his Mother to a certain extent (sacrificing his children for her hubby)...pls let it be so. *wrings hands*
\o/ i was all thinky-thinky about Jensen's comment on how fan01 could now influence the outcome and the direction of the story, which makes me think of how it was in the time of the Comedias where the actors/writers would adapt and change the script based on audience reaction, what joke flopped, what line tugged at their heart-strings... in other words, it's more like fanfics/WIP's, where there's an immediacy to the interpretation/feedback that isn't there with other types of creative endeavors. i think it's less about recognition than about conversation, which is like, idk? a totally more democratic way of expression.
/o\ CAS COULD VERY WELL BREAK THE PLACE WHERE MY HEART IS SUPPOSED TO BE. i'm so scared of betrayals and lies and the irreparable break of their relationship, but at the same time? i watched this show for the monsters and the myth arcs and the conflicts, not for the rainbows, the unicorns and the puppies and one of three ain't bad. i think Cas will do something very bad, very disappointing, but Dean will forgive because Dean is a grown-up. grown-ups know that other grown-up Angels fucking up? that's to be expected. in fact, Cas fucking up means he's advanced in his relationship with Dean, because Dean getting fucked over and Dean getting over it is a part and parcel of being in a close relationship in Dean-land. look at his Dad, his brother, even his Mother to a certain extent (sacrificing his children for her hubby)...pls let it be so. *wrings hands*
\o/ i was all thinky-thinky about Jensen's comment on how fan01 could now influence the outcome and the direction of the story, which makes me think of how it was in the time of the Comedias where the actors/writers would adapt and change the script based on audience reaction, what joke flopped, what line tugged at their heart-strings... in other words, it's more like fanfics/WIP's, where there's an immediacy to the interpretation/feedback that isn't there with other types of creative endeavors. i think it's less about recognition than about conversation, which is like, idk? a totally more democratic way of expression.
