1. My Flist is talking about Mary Sues again! Which seems to be really necessary, because people keep missing the point which is, DO NOT USE THE TERM MARY SUE AS ANOTHER WAY TO DISMISS FEMALE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. (Also, stop using the term to deflect the potentially sexist reason you ((yes, and I)) may have to hate a female fictional character. 'Cause I may hate a fic girl for a good reason, for a sexist reason, or for a good and sexist reason, but saying "She's a Mary Sue" may stop me from examining my reasons, and my prejudices and may slow my process in becoming slightly less faily).

2. Was going to look at a 7.4 promo thingy despite my former claims of spoilerphobia, but when I clicked on the play button and Sera's face apparitioned on my screen-- dear lord, it was like someone had just peed on my Krispy Kreams. you know how sometimes you don't like a certain fandom person, because they are like the nails scrapping a chalkboard of your Fandom life? and them you come across them in some comm or on yr dash? this is how I feel about about Sera. Just looking at her makes me feel sour, and this is not a good feeling. She's to me what Bucky fucken' Dent is to the Red Socks. Sera Fucken' Gamble. (I don't dislike her as a person. I dislike her writing and her decisions and how she blithely confesses not knowing what characters she is responsible for would do in X and Y situations. The way she works, to me, reflects a lack of respect for her audience. Aaaaaaaand I say all this because I am conscious of how this appears, defending fictional girls and criticizing a Real Life Woman in a position of power in the same post. C'est la vie, I'm snarky enough to shrug and wish she didn't suck so I didn't have to say she sucked.)

3. Nevertheless I was somewhat spoiled by a friend and apparently ( spoiler )

4. Got this from the tumblr Slaughterhouse90210 “She hated the nameless women in stories, as if they lived and died so that men could have metaphysical insights.”
—Chad Harbach, The Art of Fielding
Sound familiar? huh? huh?

5. CONGRATS WORLD, BECAUSE YOU ARE CURRENTLY GETTING A NEW HAPPY AND FABULOUSLY HAIRED, POTENTIALLY MOOSEY ADDITION! In other words, congrats Gen and Jared. It's awesome when awesomeness comes together to create more awesome. As God, the first slasher told Adam and Eve when he got them together in that Garden, go forth and multiply. Or at least, practice. (makes perfect bbs).

6. Since we're talking about het (^ look above) lemme talk a little bit about this het fic read I read with future!Cas and Anna, and if anybody wants a look at it, i'll even scrounge up the link. Anyways, I was reading the fic, because my love of Jane has made me so much more open to het pairings (I always was okay with them, but I seldom went out searching because heterosexuality is so pervasive and fandom was like this breeze of non-heteronormative air or whatever, which I need less and less as more and more girls who are aware of queerness, aware of feminism, just, you know! aware write fics with girls with boys in ways which that are as transgressive as m/m or f/f ((and sometimes m/m and f/f or f/m/f or m/f/m fics are sadly not)) and I started weeping (inside) at how it could have been if we'd had Cas turn human instead of -- of-- whatever the hell happened. I could almost envision the barrage of bittersweet fic, when Cas realizes that if he wants to get from point A to point B he's going to have to do more than douche-squint, when he realizes his body needs sleep, sustenance, sex. When Dean starts looking at him differently because he IS different, himself yes, but a man also. Idk. They cheated themselves out of awesome canon and totally cheated us.

7. Comic rec: Starfighter. (look @ icon)

8. This year I read The Mind's Eye, Touching the Rock by Hull and now The Quiet Verse feels like a continuation. Jensen's written like a whole body listener, and while he's not ready to surrender to the silence (DO NOT GO QUIETLY INTO THE SOUNDLESS NIGHT!) neither is he bitter about it. For some reason, while familiar and instantly recognizable is well and good, imo fresh and original always makes things seem realer. ;D

9. Communities I'm excited about/currently lurking/stalking: spn_j2_bookclub, sd_recs, and hd_canon_fest (I'm not rly that excited about that one ((not because the comm sux, just that my fandom spirit has waned on h/d)) but I'm using it to get into the H/D mood for x-mass because I've read hd_hols fanfic for the past 5 years and not doing it again would be too, too sad.)

10. tumblr is no longer enemy #1. it's actually lifting my spirits on the whole Cas issue. I know, I accept the title of Fickle Hor and thank you for the crown, it's lovely today, but I may change my mind so stick around. It's so full of Castiel is the ambassador of awesome, trufax and OMG AVENGERS MY BODY IS SO READY/EVERYTHING IS JOSS WHEDON AND NOTHING HURTS, SURPRISINGLY ((UNLESS HE KILLS LOKI, THE BAAASTERD)) that I just click, let my clicker roam and smile. like this: :D. tumblr, bringing a smile to my face since 5 seconds ago though before that it made me want to kick puppies in the face. WHO KNEW?

wow, unexpected hiatus was unexpected.

i feel so freaking out of it, my darlings. this is sooooooo weird. am i really posting? i've lost practice and feel all awk and lost and yeah. xP

anyway, i'm a do bulletsies! bulletsies will SAVE ME.

* i'm actually excited for Supernatural's 7th season. omg, holy crap, expletives, expletives. which i didn't expect considering that i've been emobitching up the wazoo about character assassinations and Sera Fucking Gambles and Damn You, Baldy, you know who you are! *shakes fist of rage and helplessness* but, yes. was watching "America's Tyra why are you so fucking batshit" and i saw like half a second of SPNity amidst the Nikitas (i'm sure it's good, but i have a list as long as Jared's arm of TV Shows To Watch and it's not a top priority...i mean, i haven't even seen "The Good Wife" or "Breaking Bad") and Teenage Vampires and Gossip Things and my heart started donkodonking. no lie.

* has everyone seen the s6 gagreel by now? it's like filmed permission to RPF. bullshit, it's a filmed permission to RPS with some poly thrown on the side. if they EVER talk about how we're all a bunch of nymphofannish pervs we can just point them to exhibit a, b, c, d,... and accuse them of pandering and entrapment and i'm not real clear on the legalese, but y'all get my point.

* talking about legalese, i am in love with "Suits" and most particularly Gina Torres. her body is perfection and it's perfection not only because it's perfection, but it's perfection because she wields it like Michelangelo wielded his sculptor-thingy when he made The David. for serious, I hate to see her go but I love to watch her leave. WAR SHIPS HAVE SAILED FOR LESS THAN THIS. i wish i could write sonnets about how she glides through a room. you guys should watch "Suits" 'cause then you can fangasm with me and also get all of gigantic's commentary. it's my favoritest show of the summer and this week is the last episode. boo!

* CAPTIVE PRINCE how many times have i rec'd this original fic and does anybody in my flist read it? NO. wtf, bbs. i'm going to have to go friend me some sadpatheticobssessedcool bitches likeme to talk about it.

* have read buttloads of thinky books and YA books and even a Romance book or two but no fics in forever. meh. i don't even know where to start. I AM INTIMIDATED BY MY OWN BOOKMARKS. lordy.

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shit. britomart_is told me that she could turn my help_japan fic into J2 "America's Next Top Model" and i said no. -_-