oh, me too-- which is why i don't like it when people say "i hope they get better, healthier" whatever. because i don't necessarily want health and a sense of proportion from my fictional love affairs. ruination, can't-live-without-eachotherness and don't even know how is good enough for me.

i just think that Cas doesn't take away from that and the claustrophobia is just one part of it. they're soul mates, they're brothers. how much closer can they get.