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“Dead and sober: double crappy.” aka Defending your life
I tried to make this spoiler-free and as general as possible while talking about it, but I'll put it under a cut if you feel it IS spoilerish.
* I didn't hate it. lol
* I do wish fanfic writers could have written the episode, though, because it was a good episode, well-acted, beautifully shot, with gorgeous lingering scenes, but
* There were moments when I felt like I was being manipulated into siding with Dean.
* Like if I didn't say, "Leave him alone, he shouldn't feel guilty about all this shit" then what I was saying was that I wanted him to die and that he was
* 90% shit. Strawman. That is not my argument.
* He's not irredeemable. He's not a waste. He's a beautiful, flawed, broken man.
* But he's not guiltless. He was guilty, just not of the things he seemed to feel guiltiest about.
* Dean does not get a free pass, though.
* He does look beautiful when he cries, he does look gorgeous all emo.
* The scene where he was psyching himself up to be with Mia was priceless,
* because I love that he's not really macho posturing Dean Winchester any longer.
* I know what you're thinking, that I'm just pissed about the Castiel thing.
* Actually, I think they went for J. because that was culturally acceptable, sensitive in the right way.
* You can show your love and need for a woman, specially once she's dead.
* It also painted Dean as a tragic romantic hero, gives him a cute, blond girl to stroke his cheek, lets him lean into one small long fingered manicured hand again. Which he does so well. Hopeless yearning fits him better than leather.
* Emotional manipulation doesn't bring out my nesting or motherly feelings though. You're barking up the wrong bitch.
* Dean does need to move on, but
* Amy was an episode ago,
* Castiel was two.
* Moving on this quickly would be heartless
* Callous
* Emotionally stunted
* Indifferent
* Cruel
* The bodies are not cold yet so
* Feel the burn when you swallow that whiskey guilt taste, Dean.
*
* ;D
That's my opinion. Don't know if it's unpopular or not, and I don't want to say it is because whenever other people say "unpopular opinion" I usually think "1. It's not an unpopular opinion, 2. aren't you the special snowflake with special unpopular snowflake opinions."
* I didn't hate it. lol
* I do wish fanfic writers could have written the episode, though, because it was a good episode, well-acted, beautifully shot, with gorgeous lingering scenes, but
* There were moments when I felt like I was being manipulated into siding with Dean.
* Like if I didn't say, "Leave him alone, he shouldn't feel guilty about all this shit" then what I was saying was that I wanted him to die and that he was
* 90% shit. Strawman. That is not my argument.
* He's not irredeemable. He's not a waste. He's a beautiful, flawed, broken man.
* But he's not guiltless. He was guilty, just not of the things he seemed to feel guiltiest about.
* Dean does not get a free pass, though.
* He does look beautiful when he cries, he does look gorgeous all emo.
* The scene where he was psyching himself up to be with Mia was priceless,
* because I love that he's not really macho posturing Dean Winchester any longer.
* I know what you're thinking, that I'm just pissed about the Castiel thing.
* Actually, I think they went for J. because that was culturally acceptable, sensitive in the right way.
* You can show your love and need for a woman, specially once she's dead.
* It also painted Dean as a tragic romantic hero, gives him a cute, blond girl to stroke his cheek, lets him lean into one small long fingered manicured hand again. Which he does so well. Hopeless yearning fits him better than leather.
* Emotional manipulation doesn't bring out my nesting or motherly feelings though. You're barking up the wrong bitch.
* Dean does need to move on, but
* Amy was an episode ago,
* Castiel was two.
* Moving on this quickly would be heartless
* Callous
* Emotionally stunted
* Indifferent
* Cruel
* The bodies are not cold yet so
* Feel the burn when you swallow that whiskey guilt taste, Dean.
*
* ;D
That's my opinion. Don't know if it's unpopular or not, and I don't want to say it is because whenever other people say "unpopular opinion" I usually think "1. It's not an unpopular opinion, 2. aren't you the special snowflake with special unpopular snowflake opinions."
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All my feelings about the episode got washed away on a tide of "Oh, Jo, I keep forgetting how much I love you and how pretty you are and how much I wish you'd hung out with the angels."
But yes. Dean is not guiltless. I like to think he just has on the surface the parts of his guilt that are easiest to deal with. He's good at compartmentalizing. I think Castiel is... the bones in the box beneath his bed. Not buried, not put away quite so neatly yet, either. Something that emotions and words can't be applied to quite yet because it's all too soon.
I'm doing that thing where I say too many words and cease to make sense but hopefully you catch my drift. Obviously, I am applying all my personal writerly dreaming onto canon. Which is completely what I do.
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All my feelings about the episode got washed away on a tide of "Oh, Jo, I keep forgetting how much I love you and how pretty you are and how much I wish you'd hung out with the angels."
Jo and Angels? Man, I never thought of it, but now it feels like I need it yesterday.
But yes. Dean is not guiltless. I like to think he just has on the surface the parts of his guilt that are easiest to deal with. He's good at compartmentalizing. I think Castiel is... the bones in the box beneath his bed. Not buried, not put away quite so neatly yet, either. Something that emotions and words can't be applied to quite yet because it's all too soon.
Hmm. I hadn't thought of that. That I can understand. It's like all he can handle right now, what's right in front of him. Wanting more when what he has is so easily lost would break him.
I'm doing that thing where I say too many words and cease to make sense but hopefully you catch my drift. Obviously, I am applying all my personal writerly dreaming onto canon. Which is completely what I do.
I love your writerly dreaming. I depend on it. I've been somewhat reconciled about the episode, because they kept marrying bits of it to your fic "Jensen Inside" on tumblr. Have you seen it? ugh. Gorgeous...
I tend to do dreaming of my own but --like Dean-- I compartmentalize what I fanon believe and what I canon believe. I'm much more romantic and happier in fanon. ;D
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OH GOD. One of my absolute favourite people connected up Jensen Inside to the episode and I was all *___* oh, how perfect and lovely! :) I could not be happier that other people are still thinking of that fic in any way.