All my feelings about the episode got washed away on a tide of "Oh, Jo, I keep forgetting how much I love you and how pretty you are and how much I wish you'd hung out with the angels."

Jo and Angels? Man, I never thought of it, but now it feels like I need it yesterday.

But yes. Dean is not guiltless. I like to think he just has on the surface the parts of his guilt that are easiest to deal with. He's good at compartmentalizing. I think Castiel is... the bones in the box beneath his bed. Not buried, not put away quite so neatly yet, either. Something that emotions and words can't be applied to quite yet because it's all too soon.

Hmm. I hadn't thought of that. That I can understand. It's like all he can handle right now, what's right in front of him. Wanting more when what he has is so easily lost would break him.

I'm doing that thing where I say too many words and cease to make sense but hopefully you catch my drift. Obviously, I am applying all my personal writerly dreaming onto canon. Which is completely what I do.

I love your writerly dreaming. I depend on it. I've been somewhat reconciled about the episode, because they kept marrying bits of it to your fic "Jensen Inside" on tumblr. Have you seen it? ugh. Gorgeous...

I tend to do dreaming of my own but --like Dean-- I compartmentalize what I fanon believe and what I canon believe. I'm much more romantic and happier in fanon. ;D