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"Turkey Shoot" by Pink Kafka

friction match
"It's the end of the world. You can be anyone you choose to be." Daryl Dixon, at the end of the world.
Daryl, Glenn, Rick, Andrea, ensemble. Gen, with canon pairings. Daryl & Glenn friendship.
~24,800 (complete)

* I love apocafics because I like when people get stretched to their very limits. most love stories (i'm not saying love is this way --cause I don't like to make generalizations because in yr life love might be unicorns, but fiction, ya know?) are apocafics in a way, anyway, so.
* last time I read a story from a hick pov, I was reading Twain. this is part of what I love about fanfiction, that its gaze based on girl gaze, based on queer or bi girl gaze, based on straight girl who is interested in queering gaze. that gaze finds beauty and finds understanding in even the types of dudes who are usually nothing but the butts of "Deliverance" jokes.
* i read it as UST between Glenn and Daryl, and then I read it as Gen and it works either way because the author finds/shows the passion of family and friendship.
* i'm rly interested in family (duh) and I tend to MOST enjoy fandoms where family features heavily, like SPN, HP and TWD. i was thinking about how Daryl is like Draco, who has to grow up and reject his family in order to find his family.

Rating: (x(x_(X_x(o_O)x_x)_X)x)
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* so apparently when i say "i'm gonna do the blogowrimo" i mean i will watch "Arrested Development: and "Parks and Recreation" ignore the hell out of LJ, read books, and lurk like a hor on tumblr.

* i've been using a DW to private post my favorite fics because SPN has made me afraid as fuck of losing all the fics i hold close to my heart because some brilliantly talented author no longer feels any joy in this fandom and doesn't want (totally justifiable, because it's every author's right) to post their fics online. what do you guys do to save your favorite fics?

*pls to not be talking to me about the latest episode, because i haven't watched it-- I'm scared to. I feel so hopeless ever since Castiel went the way of Virginia Wolf and I haven't been able to feel the same joy and excitement I used to feel when I watched the show, and I'm just really apprehensive. though I'm actually kind of weird since sometimes tragedy makes me go in the other direction-- like "Glory" with Den Washington: that kind of tragedy lifts me up into the stratosphere. I'm not sure though, that SPN can deliver that amount of beautiful catharsis.

* want a card or a card and a book? made by little old me? go here! xP some awesomesauce bitches have already signed up. don't miss out on my cracktastic fanart cards and flawless taste in gay books! ;DDDDD

FanReading List for the Holidays.
i encourage y'all to do this, create your own reading lists of fics and comment, because comments are ♥ and authors everyone can use a little ♥ during the Holidays.
Read more... )
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\o/ Umm. I'm doing the blogowrimo thing in November, so expect me to have a lot of opinions about a lot of stuff, and rants about books I've read and quotes and just random stuff you probably will tl;dr and no1curr. The entries will also have commercial interruptions. Such as...

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XP Anybody else doing that or the nanowrimo thing? If you do let me know, and I'll read the crap out of you.

\o/ Could you guys please rec me Dean/Castiel where Castiel is hesitant and tries to resist the inhumanly strong temptation that is Dean Winchester? I don't rly read a whole lot of Destiel, but I'm rly hankering for that particular flavor of it. Also, Cockles. Send some Cockles my way. (I don't rly go for PWP's though, just so you know) or just any fic where Misha is showcased predominantly. I miss him so much guys, you don't know. Self-pimping is mandatory.

/o\ I think I'm going to be reading more Destiel from now on, because I am under the distinct impression that he's gone the way of Gabriel. Despite all Sera says to the contrary (or because all she says the contrary) I think Castiel is mostly gone and if he ever comes back, I don't think it will be in a satisfactory manner. So fanfic it is. *K-shrug*

/o\ The walking dead:
Shane is a douche mountain, no not a douche canoe, no. A douche mountain, and not a small one either that you can hike up in one day, oh no. That bitch will take you weeks. Just when I thought I couldn't think worst of him, I dislike him more now than when I disliked him before. Wtf is with you, dude? You're like your own fucking Iago or some shit, when the going gets tough you just grow more and more corrupt. Next time I'm rooting for the zombies (look at me swagger like I wasn't doing that already).
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first of all HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! may the great pumpkin bring you goodies.



I'm having Nightshifter flashbacks-- wait, now it's Romanov family. shit.i used to watch that made for tv movie they used to give and i CRIED BUCKETS over the Romanovs when I was little. anybody know wtf i'm talking about? anybody? no? oh well.

Meatsicles sounds kinda homoerotic but in a bad way.

Above paygrade monsters. awww, Sandy was in MENSA. =( Miss the hell out her.

"I'm giving away all my secrets because I haven't the Evil Overlord List of what not to do when you're, you know, an evil overlord."

Sam and Dean Winchester Manhunt. How fucking awesome. I love when they're running from the po-pos. I want to read a really amazingsauce boys get arrested, mistaken for psychos, interrogated by FBI agents type of fic.

HAIR! lol see? we Sam-girls always knew hair was important. Cloned with hair. :D yay

"If you're going to be stupid, you might as well be smart about it," should be on the Winchester family crest.

One of those Agents is kind of cutie Tom Feltonish. #onceamalfoyalwaysamalfoy

this dude reminds me of Ronald from Nightshifter with his cyborg stories.

200 million cameras? WTF. i'm going to start Greta Garboing it and not get out of the house for ANYTHING. they're going to have to deliver those "Krispy Kreme" donuts to my house.

Mr. and Mr. Smith :::::::::::DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDOMG!!!!!!!! Dean is Angelina Jolie. he has the lips for it.

off with his head? that's the secret? to Marie Antoinette it?

"Your Doublemints are using a car just like one outside." Holy shit. I knew this day would come.

Sheriff Sassy in the haaaaaaaaaaause. Nice things are happening to Bobby. Shit is going down. I'll never believe anything good will come to Bobby's life. Ever.

A my little pony + I'm so out of love
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The Leviathans are talking about Dean/Sam characterizations and some surprise PULP FICTION. They talked shit about Sundance blah blah blah Newman blah blah Redford but it's all about the "Quarantino."

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Dean/Dean :D:D:D:D:D:D

Cleanliness is holiness, you fucked up Leviathan dickwad.

"I'm not your brother."How much do I love Sammy's scared face?

booo i wanted more interaction between the fake brothers with the real brothers

Sam and Dean Winchester are dead. again.

Sheriff Sassy is seriously giving Bobby the look. you know the look, it's the same look fake-Dean (can't sing or maybe he can) gave real-Dean.



"Don't Roofie me and call it romance." I'm carving that shit on my ass, like that Twihard kid carved Edward on his arm.

"Kinda like you helped Amy?" Oh, baby. Whatever. Like you never lied to Dean. Yeah.

I understand though. I've fanfic'd this in my mind and I can see Sam thinking of Amy out in the world, with her son, like maybe he didn't have a mother --didn't deserve one, was always meant not to have one-- but that non-human little boy, he had a mom who would do anything for him. Monstrous soul-selling things for him. And now he's had his rug pulled from under him. Which yeah, temporary separation.

I guess this was the "I can't even look at you" scene they had to beta. Fuck it, bbs. It was "I can't even look at you right now" in my troll-head anyway. xD

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* I admit to reading spnanon. I know! but I only read the actor posts. I know! but-- IDK. I missed the days when Sandy was around, and fanfic has made me seriously adore her (though wow, i love Gen too and i think GenJar is ADORABLE and Danneel, Danneeeeeeeel *_*) -- besides. I take everything with a grain of salt and I squint as I'm reading because THERE ARE SO CRAYCRAY PEOPLE ALL UP IN THAT MUDAFUCKA. Besides, how awesome that I found this: Read more... )

* apparently Jesen and Jared are now betas? they have to change their scenes so they're a bit less campy & romcom? I can just see it now; beta note: *Dude, could you like, make me sound less like a 13 yr old girl breaking up with her boyfriend while she's secretly recreating that one scene in "The Notebook?"* I have a beta note of my own: I WANT ASPERGERY ANGEL NAO.

* bought two mammoth anthologies with the zombie theme. :D:D:D:D:D:D shut up. it's my comfort foodBRAINZ! read. the good thing is that if the zombie apocalypse ever comes and i'm surrounded i can use the two books to kill them. one good chuck to the head and they're dead. again.

* do you guys like my icons? as you all know, i abide by the pink rule, because pink is for girls and girls are insipid, trivial, decorative but totally impractical. *death stare* i'm thinking of getting a new theme. if i do, do y'all have any recs?
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this weekend i finally read Like Luggage of Some Departed Traveller by the inimitable [livejournal.com profile] britomart_is. she has some fics that are so amazingsauce (seriously, click those links, you won't be sorry) and epic and everything i look for in writing, and i never feel like i'm compromising in order to read about "the boys" and Aspergery boy angel (i really hate compromising). it was funny, because i'd just finished reading "The Forest of Hands and Teeth," a story about the "Unconsecrated" and here i was starting a fic about "Croats." if the Zombie apocalypse ever comes, i'll be super prepared. i really enjoyed the fic, but i kinda wished we'd have a bit more croat intervention. you know what i mean? i understand that the most important aspect of the fic was the relationship between the characters (dear god, she writes a great Jess, her Dean is completely irresistible and Sam is gorgeous, inside out, even when you want to slap him with a brick) but i kinda missed the threat of Croat every once in a while; that delicious doomy feeling on the pit of my stomach which comes like a bad augur while i read zombie books or watch zombie movies simply wasn't there. she did deal with the OT3 flawlessly, and i --as y'all can see-- am rly rly picky. usually, my experience with OT3 fics is that someone gets just a little bit left out, everybody is so sophisticated and cool about everything that there's no conflict and the sex is so graphic it's soulless. not here. Brit is smarty pants enough to share the spotlight, to write these relationships in such an incredibly charming way, so enjoyable that they all feel vital, all feel necessary, and the sex is scorching and graphic, but never soulless. just hawt like fire. plus, jealousy plays a part in it, which is awesome. i hatehatehate perfect lovers and perfect relationships.

i also watched "Downton Abbey" which is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good. i'm not kidding guys. this is not the type of period show you watch because you've been told it's so educational and instructive and whatever pretentious blah blah-- this show is just entertaining and fun, and critically acclaimed (and great despite of that ;D).

the result of this mismatch (and Friday's premiere) was that last night i had these recurring dreams of Castiel as a Lord Castiel of Herdhamdonfordfordshire and Dean and Sam as Footman and Chauffeur respectively. i don't rly remember what happened, i just know that now i want to read SPN/DA x-over and that's not happening any time soon.

i did have a dream right before i woke up, which ended quite depressingly on the much written scene where Sam goes off to college, except i mixed it up with that "Thank you for curing me of my incurable obsession with love" scene in "Moulin Rouge." in my dream, Dean walks after Sam as he storm out ("If you go, stay gone.") and hands him an envelope. Sam looks at Dean, surprisedgratefulregretfulface on, he's about to say thank you or no i can't take this, and Dean replies with something to the effect that Sam "earned it" anyway, a wink and a roll of the hips to twist the knife. i woke up feeling tragic. lol

i've seen some debates going around (TUMBLR sneer + ugh!) about who was at fault here, like Dean had to forgive Sam for walking out on the family or Dean was being totally unreasonable about Sam leaving for college. reading "The Forest of Hands and Teeth" (where something similar happens) i finally understood that Sam leaving was heartbreaking for both of them. i mean, i kind of knew, but TFoHaT really made me totally feel the heartbreak.

i don't want to give too much away, because unwanted spoilers suck, but i think this is so SPN (and maybe just what seems to happen to Dean over and over again) that i wanna share it. xP

"I think that even then I knew I wouldn't be enough for you,...It's no longer about the ocean. It's about you and what you want and need. Maybe you'll be happy with me for a few years..."

He pauses and I can see tears flooding his eyes again. "I can't be your second choice dream."

"Would you give up the ocean for me?"

I hesitate, place a hand on the doorjam. I had once hoped, as it did for my mother, love would keep all other dreams at bay. The realization that it will not washes over me and I walk through the door, leaving him without an answer.
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\o/ lemme just say that i love when strapping young men cuddle each other like cats. for realsies, it's better than sex to me. xP shut up.

/o\ i have been trying to steer clear off any spoilers for S7-Supernatural because i'm worried i'll get my heartbroken and suffer horribly beforehand and during and then after. better to just suffer during and after, despite all rumors to the contrary i am not a masochist. i am apprehensive though. that dread horror movie feeling you get when you know shit is about to go down like Jason on the Titanic. i'm so scared for Castiel-- not necessarily that he may die, because who are we kidding here, this is Supernatural, Jesus's resurrection is nothing next to these biatches. but i am worried that they might ruin the character beyond repair and that Cas-haters will use shoddy canon to get their Cas-hateration on. anyway, i'm already prophesying evil stories in my head, i don't need hysterical commentary and spoilers to make it worst.

\o/ read "Feed" by Mira Grant, and are now even more obsessed than i used to be about zombies. i love apocalypse movies, books, comics. when i was a kid i'd watch and rewatch "The Plague" with Raul Julia and William Hurt like other kids watched "Goonies."

"Feed" is a near-future political thriller where bloggers are respectable journalists with government licenses & pack heat, the Zombie Apocalypse has actually happened, and we survived thanks to savior of mankind: George Romero. WHAT WOULD GEORGE ROMERO DO? there are quite a few zombies still walking the Earth ready to eat us, but we've got the proper technology to survive them, and we do just like we used to survive all the other predators that tried to eat us back in the day of caves and clubs and bows and arrows. in this AU, there are different types of bloggers: Fictionals (who write fic & poetry), Stewarts (who give you news/opinions), Irwins (poking crocks zombies is their specialty), and Newsies (they give you the news straight up, no thrills and frills). in the middle of all this are Newsie!George and Irwin!Shaun Mason, an intrepid brother-sister duo who have been chosen to follow a political candidate in the road to the presidency. it's a book for nerds. yeah, the zombies are a constant threat, but the science behind the infection is a big deal (OMG I FUCKING LOVE WORLD-BUILDING SO MUCH I WANT TO GAY MARRY IN IT IN NY) and so are the characters. in the end, it's not the zombies who are the real bad guys in this story... this is what i love about good sci-fi, how it puts things on a grand scale in order to magnify the little things without being twee or corny about them. love and living large and carpe diem are not that trite when tomorrow your granny might be munching on yr brain.

in a way it's also an issues book (politics/corruption, the integrity of the news & journalists, fame whores, the culture of fear, terrorism, the role of Religion without discernment in promoting wtfuckery, truth and how far you'll go to preserve it, etc.). but a well written issues book. like, it transcends the issues and is all about the story with those issues added in making it all better. not many nerdy, smart, fun zombie books out there and this is one of them.

two --er-- caveats? i don't even know what to call them, because i'm not really warning you about these things, like Shaun would never try to dissuade somebody from walking into a zombie-infested zone because he wouldn't wanna deprive you of fun-- but, just keep your head about you is all i'm sayin.'

uno- not gonna lie there's also a bit of a sam&dean type of relationship going on with cynical George and jaunty, wise-cracking Shaun which left me interested, and no, not in the porny sense. i just love rly intense claustrophobic relationships that don't have a smidgeon of health to them. because screw health on the missionary, i just want intensity, intimacy, the realization that these two people work because of each other and if one of them was to die the other one would be ruined without them. grand passion, you know, and all that.

dos- one thing that didn't quite jive with me was how George would pretend to be a Newsie when she really felt like a Stewart in her blog entries. not objective and free from opinion at all-- specially as the story progressed and she became closer and closer to the Republican candidate. (yes, Republican, but don't hold that against him. the world has gone mad, zombies are walking the Earth and a Republican candidate is actually kinda cool for some of the values of...). that might have been intentional though, i'm still thinking about it.


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